Oh man... it's been a while since my last blog. A LOT of things have happened to me. I've been so busy with work that I don't have time to write a blog. It is sad. Last month, I was working on a report. The idea of coming home and writing a blog just didn't sound appealing to me. So, that was why I was away from this blogging community for a while. Anyhow, I'm back. I'm still swamped. But I thought I'd jump on here real quick to close a chapter of what has been happening to me, which actually originated from my first blog.
Remember, Mr. A, the dude I went out on a couple of dates with last year and he then started dating somebody else a week later? Well, they broke up at the end of January. Since then, I got stuck in the middle (not in a good way, of course!). I became friends with both of them. And they are now not talking to each other. It's weird. It's odd. It's become this huge drama between them and I ended up having to listen to stories from both sides. Not fun...!
Anyhow, after their break-up, Mr. A and I started hanging out more frequently. He started to attract me again. What is wrong with me?! Why do I tend to fall for the wrong guys?! So, I started to get to know him better and started to like him more and more. Last weekend, I bought him his birthday dinner. We then went out hitting a couple of bars. We ran into Kamal and some of my friends at the last bar including the chocolate cake guy that Toni and I had run into at Power & Light district in a couple of episodes ago (remember him?). At the bar, the chocolate cake guy kept asking Mr. A for his number like 5 times. Mr. A was reluctant giving it to him, but eventually he gave it to him anyway. That night, we had to drive someone we barely knew home because he somehow lost his ride. We got a little lost driving to his place. The guy then said, "Oh. You could drop Jack off first and then drop me." WTF?! His place was obviously on the way to my house. So, it wouldn't make sense for Mr. A to drop me off first and then drop him off. Obviously, he was looking for something from Mr. A! Well, Mr. A was a pretty hot commodity that night. Regardless, we went ahead and dropped him off. While Mr. A was dropping me off, he wanted to have some water. So, he came in. We were watching TV for a little bit. Things then got a little touchy. We ended up cuddling on the sofa. It was getting late. So, I told him that he should stay here. He could either sleep in my bed and I'd sleep on the couch or vice versa. But I told him that he should sleep in my bed. He then said, "We both should go to bed". I said, "Sure. But we could just keep our clothes on and we won't do anything inappropriate." Well, once we got in bed, things got a little out of control. So, we ended up getting naked. One thing let to another. The next morning, we acted normal. Everything was fine. I got to think that day that he actually wasn't all that. He sure looks good in his clothes. But his body is not all that great. So, at that point, I was having no preference towards him.
The following Tuesday, he came over to help me with my bike since we were going to do a duathlon over the weekend. He told me the chocolate cake guy had been texting him and asked me if I knew anything about the dinner the chocolate cake guy was having that night. Apparently, they had been talking. The chocolate cake guy never invited me for the dinner that night. And I thought it was rude of him to all the sudden start texting Mr. A and snatch him from me! Whatever. He's just immature. Oh... and all the sudden, the chocolate cake guy started sending me text messages and messages on Facebook trying to be friend with me again. Whatever.
So, Mr. A and I went to Columbia, MO for the duathlon. It was a lot of fun. We then went to St. Louis after the race. We stayed overnight there and came back today. It was a good trip. We got to talk a lot about our personal stuff and our feelings towards each other. I very much enjoy his company. I've been wanting to do races like this. And I think he will be a good person that I can tag along and do stuff with. The only thing that I will have to detach from him is romance. I am the kind of person that can easily fall for someone. But at the same time, I don't want to ruin our friendship, the good times, and the good feelings I have towards him, especially with him being so unstable and having to deal with a lot of drama! So, on the way back to Kansas City, we got to talk and agreed that we should be just friends.
So, Mr. A and I started from going on a date. He dated someone else. He and I became friends. He broke up with the guy. He and I crossed the line. Someone else was interested in him. And now he and I will be just friends. The bitch can have him. Kansas City's gay scene is small. The world has evolved. The chapter between Mr. A and me is closed and has concluded with friendship. Time to move on, Jack. I keep telling myself that...
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Your transparency is amazing Jack and you should always remain true to yourself. Every experience adds to our character. The good, the bad and the ugly shapes us in some way. If it doesnt kill us it makes us stronger. And remember, while love may be fleeting - we can never have too many friends :)) Just choke one up for friendship right? Just leaves one more thing to say: NEXT!!!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much!! Your response means a lot to me. As you already know, I'm pretty transparent. If I like someone, I say so. Like you said, you should always be true to yourself. After all, you are the only person that knows yourself. You have given me inspiration. And you are right. You can never have too many friends. But it would be nice to have someone to hold you and care about you as a lover though. You and Patrick are lucky to have each other. I envy you guys!! :-)
ReplyDeleteNEXT....!